"WHY?" Why does it have to be always me? Why is life like this? Why is it that the most difficult questions on earth begin with a "Why?" Why???
Indeed, man has the inherent desire to know: one good reason why one keeps asking the "why" questions.
A phenomenon has kept recurring recently these days. In every beginning of my exposures in the mission areas, something bad happens. Talking about my health, last month i suffered from skin asthma. The next week after that my gums were swollen because of a wisdom tooth wanting to come out. And just last week, i stepped on a nail which caused me a painful injection of anti-tetanus and some more medication. All of these happened while i was on the missions. Many a times, i would ask God "Why?" Are these all signs? It really bothers me up until now, i'm still struggling with missionary work.
Yet i think its good though that one never stops asking "why?" "Why" questions demand deep thinking and reflection. And when one begins to ask "why" and pursues to find its answer, he/she embarks on an inward journey that will surely reveal a lot of truth-discoveries not just about himself but of the world around him as well.
For the past few weeks, I've been asking a lot of Why questions. And my inquiring mind has led me to a state of deep reflection and the endeavor of being in touch with my true self. I have been purifying my intentions why i am doing missionary work. I'm constantly pondering why i want become a Redemptorist priest someday. And experience tells me that I am on a journey which solely revolves around the goal of knowing myself. Up until now, this sailing forth has brought about revelations about myself which would either be hurtful or wonderful, or even both. I say it's a sojourn worth pursuing.

Don't stop asking why, and never cease to pursue its answer... you might just know yourself more.